I feel like junk. Sort of. I started this whole journey toward wellness because I was feeling sooo depleted, and was feeling unhappy. I'm not feeling as bad as I was then. No, not nearly. But I have slid back over the last few weeks from the progress I had made. Why? I'm not exactly sure. Some thoughts:
I am very inconsistent with my diet. I eat very well for a meal or two, then purge on something not-so-good. For some reason, even though I had not touched them for a few weeks, I craved Doritos the other night, and have been eating heartily of them since.
Hubby and I have taken about a week off from exercising. This was due to illness and travel. We did exercise this morning.
I am TIRED. This was my main complaint, all the time, when I started this blog. What I don't quite comprehend is that when I was feeling better, it didn't seem to be quite as debilitating when I was tired. I was still pretty content. I could tell a couple of weeks ago, when I first started feeling really tired again, that it was one of the cycles where I just get more and more fatigued to the point where I pass out with the kids early, whether I want to or not. And staying positive and go with the flow becomes harder and harder. I feel as if I've slipped backwards, and I'm not sure why.
Despite all this, the Clinical Nutritionist I'm seeing weekly at the Natural Health Improvement Center informed me last week that I am improving. Hm!
My skin is starting to itch, which really hasn't been much of an issue lately. My son's skin is looking worse.
I am drinking more coffee. Another sign that I am in a fatigue cycle.
And my mind is very heavy with my friend's diagnosis of breast cancer. Hell!
I realize that good health is a journey, not a goal. And so I move forward, one step at a time.
Hubby and I tried getting up early to exercise, because it has become hard to fit it n at the end of the day. (Partly due to the kids staying up later with the new evening/bed time plan) I told hubby that I'd need to go to bed earlier to compensate, which pretty much eliminates any evening time we have together. There are just not enough hours in the day! Today we got up an hour earlier than usual, and I grumpily made my way downstairs. I may not have had quite the pep in my step that I do in the evening, but darn it, I did it. The kids woke up during the workout, but were content enough to sit on the couch and watch.
I'm trying to do better with food. I am very lazy in this department, but I realize that I cannot improve (skin, general health, mood) if I don't try. So I'm trying to shop better, so I can't cheat at home. It's slow progress, but I want to keep trying. And doing it for the kids' sake makes me more motivated.
With the milder weather coming, we're spending more time outside, which is always good. Gotta get away from the tv and computer!!! Sucks me in.......
And my friend? I'm thinking about what kind of hats I can make her to wear as she faces chemo. But dammit, I'm still feeling angry about her diagnosis. Dammit.
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