I'm on a journey to find health and happiness through a more holistic and green lifestyle.

I find the world to be abrasive. =) That is to say, I feel the need to armor myself, physically and emotionally, in order to face life. Don't we all? Maybe. For whatever reason, it has become a priority in my life to rid my immediate environment of irritating things. And I'm sensitive! So there is much work to be done. But. I have thought for a long time that the things I come in contact with every day, and the stuff used to clean and maintain these things, need to be gentle and non-toxic. I have had eczema my entire life. For a long time I just dealt with it, and accepted that sometimes it's bad, and sometimes it's not, and that it will fluctuate a lot. Gradually over time I have come to find that certain things, fabrics, cleansers, materials, are more irritating to my skin than others. Stress can exacerbate it. In more recent times, I have realized that every aspect of my life improves when I improve conditions for my skin. Hah! What a concept! Thus my (long time) interest in going green, and my more recent desire to live a more holistic lifestyle. (I think I've felt a desire for a long time to live in a harmonious way with myself, my surroundings, and nature, but didn't have a name for it.) Anyhow, this blog is a journal of my trials and errors, and basic crooked path to find a balanced and peaceful existence for myself and my family. Thanks for your interest! I would love to hear your thoughts and ideas!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010


Remember when I wrote about balance? That if one aspect of your life is off, it effects everything else? Well, today I'm thinking it works in a different way, too. If you put too much focus on getting something right, (rather than neglecting something) then something else goes awry. Or at least it does for me. Today, we had been in the house for long enough, and I insisted we get out. We jumped in the car. But I had left the house hungry. So while I was meeting my need to get out and get moving, I had neglected that. And what is all around us for those who are hungry but can't be inconvenienced by cooking or going to a store? Well, McDonald's, for one. And Burger King. And Taco Bell. And Dunkin' Donuts. And KFC. Dear god! How is a person supposed to exist in a splendidly healthy world when all about us is crap? Temptation! How do I resist?! I succumbed. (Head down, shaking sadly) Dammit! So I go us out, fed us crap, drove around polluting the environment with my SUV as my children slept, and came home to feel both good and bad about it all. I thought about taking us to a park to get outside and get some exercise, but my DD was in sparkle shoes, not snow shoes! And my DS needed to sleep. Really needed to sleep. But I had to make like we were doing something fun to get DD to agree to get in the car. So dang it, I did the best I could given my circumstances. No I didn't. But shoot. It's hard!


  1. Aww, don't be too hard on yourself, it'll all come right the more you practice. (((Dais)))

    You're doing GREAT, girl! You are moving forward, and that's what counts. :)

  2. Thanks, K. You are right. It's a process. My husband told me tonight that he felt that he ate poorly at lunch time. He really noticed it because we have been eating better, so the way the less healthy food choice effected him was really obvious. I remarked that it is because he is eating better that he noticed the difference when he didn't. We are both proud of ourselves for making (some) better choices. He is also enjoying the exercise we are getting most nights (when I told him that I ate McCrap today, he told me he was going to make me work out tonight =) and his mood is definitely improving, as is mine. Sooooo baby steps, baby steps!