I'm on a journey to find health and happiness through a more holistic and green lifestyle.

I find the world to be abrasive. =) That is to say, I feel the need to armor myself, physically and emotionally, in order to face life. Don't we all? Maybe. For whatever reason, it has become a priority in my life to rid my immediate environment of irritating things. And I'm sensitive! So there is much work to be done. But. I have thought for a long time that the things I come in contact with every day, and the stuff used to clean and maintain these things, need to be gentle and non-toxic. I have had eczema my entire life. For a long time I just dealt with it, and accepted that sometimes it's bad, and sometimes it's not, and that it will fluctuate a lot. Gradually over time I have come to find that certain things, fabrics, cleansers, materials, are more irritating to my skin than others. Stress can exacerbate it. In more recent times, I have realized that every aspect of my life improves when I improve conditions for my skin. Hah! What a concept! Thus my (long time) interest in going green, and my more recent desire to live a more holistic lifestyle. (I think I've felt a desire for a long time to live in a harmonious way with myself, my surroundings, and nature, but didn't have a name for it.) Anyhow, this blog is a journal of my trials and errors, and basic crooked path to find a balanced and peaceful existence for myself and my family. Thanks for your interest! I would love to hear your thoughts and ideas!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I Hate/I Love

When I'm tired, I hate cooking. Actually I hate all aspects of meals. Planning, shopping, cooking, balancing, cleaning up. When I'm well rested, it's fun.

When I'm tired, I hate that I'm constantly picking up the messes that my kids make. When I'm well rested, I help make the messes, and don't mind the clean-up.

When I'm tired, I can't deal with my children being tired, punchy, short-fused, upset, rude, rebellious. When I'm well rested, I'm understanding, caring, loving and sympathetic.

When I'm tired, I hate getting all bundled up and facing the cold, bright, grey wintry world. When I'm well rested, I initiate it.

When I'm tired, I hate having to leave the comfort of my house. When I'm well rested, I look forward to getting out.

When I'm tired, I can't wait until the children fall asleep at night. When I'm well rested, I enjoy a relaxed evening routine.

When I'm tired, the idea of exercise kills me. When I'm well rested, it thrills me.

When I'm tired, housework overwhelms me. When I'm well rested, housework overwhelms me. (oh well!)

I'm tired of being tired.


  1. Sounds like depleted Liver energy (in Chinese medicine/acupuncture) to me! Also, a clear cause and effect consequence you could calmly and matter-of-factly point out to your children: "when you wake up too early and don't let me sleep, I get tired, and when I am tired, I can't...(fill in the blank with something relevant and meaningful to them)." Then, calmy repeat this thoughout the day as it comes up, "I don't have the energy today to...(fill in with child request here) because...(fill in the blank with cause)" I honestly think this is a more humane and educational approach than holding it all in, especially as the children get older.

  2. I feel like I have just read my own thoughts.